Ninyn

• I haven't found an internship yet.

At the end of last week, I had a horrible stomach flu; which meant I spent around 3 days being alone in my room.

Being alone is both a curse and a blessing for me. I get way too caught up in my head after spending too much time alone. Negativity takes over, thoughts take over, and before you know it I've spent hours in bed doing absolutely nothing; turning into a negative thought loop of "oh god I suck" + "I've done nothing to improve" = "boohoo!".

I'm so grateful that going to therapy last year has taught me how to deal with this stuff. I've learned to realise that thoughts are just thoughts. I know that those thoughts are not me. Those thoughts are remnants of a past me. The scary thing is that these thoughts can inflict your future you to a great extent.

Then suddenly, after sending out a dozen internship applications - I received my first reply! My initial reaction was "ALREADY?" followed by "HOW DOES BREATHING WORK AGAIN?" followed by strolling up and down the hallway for 30 minutes because I was so filled with excitement. Things are getting real! The e-mail was positive, I was given an assignment which I have a week for (I have 2 days left). Things are going very well so far and I've received only positive feedback on what I've been working on. Good times all round! (Also, no pressure at all. Ha.)

Tomorrow is the deadline for our school project, Friday is the deadline for my personal objectives this block and next Monday is my panel exam. Next Wednesday is Industry Day at University where I hopefully get to talk to a few people from companies (including the one I'm currently doing the assignment for). There are a lot of exciting and amazing things coming up that I'm looking very much forward to. The lazy part of me has to admit that she cannot wait to binge watch Firefly next weekend and go to Scotland for 8 days the following weekend.

Closing off with a little mantra that I can definitely relate to:
But I ain’t in a patient phase"
(Thanks Marina & The Diamonds)

Have a great week, everyone!
Liefs,

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After about 1,5 years, I finally got a PC that can manage running Adobe Premiere and doesn't require me to render for thirty minutes whatever I'm editing every five minutes. So, I've decided to start making little compilation videos of the roadtrip I did through Scotland in 2014.

...there is about 200 gigs of footage.

Every Sunday for the past three weeks I've been doing some sorting and deciding what kind of compilations I'd like to make. Today I finished the first compilation! And as the title says, it's like therapy. For a long time I struggled with giving myself 'me-time' or allowing myself to relax and do nothing. Due to my old pc being a wreck, it only caused me to stress out even more when I worked on editing (in pretty much any type of software, it wouldn't even run Photoshop!). So that lovely day, three weeks ago, when I turned on my new PC (I very fittingly named it The Cheat, in loving memory of sbemail-pc) and started up Adobe Premiere, fond memories returned.

That day, I spent 10 hours on end editing and sorting out footage. I LOVED EVERY MINUTE OF IT. My plan is to create around 4 or 5 compilation video of about 1:30 minutes maximum. They're the right length to keep your attention, and it forces me to make a very aware and distinct selection in what footage I would like to show, as I am a fond believer of less is more!

Of course I'm going to close off todays entry with a link to the video. It's such a weird experience to see myself from 1,5 years ago, and how much I've changed not only in my ways but in my appearance as well! Another confirmation of making the right decisions and following the right path. :)

Enjoy the video, and enjoy your Sunday.

Liefs. x

Compilation 1

We were freezing, it was getting dark, and after driving around for quite some time we were getting ready to pitch our tents.

It was kind of scary, since officially we were not allowed to camp in this area.

"Let's just do it."

The tents were up. The lights of the castle were still on. It was getting colder and colder, so I layered up. Wearing my leggings, hiking trousers and pajamas, three pairs of socks, gloves, a cardigan and a coat, I was still freezing (On an August night, mind you!). I wiggled my toes inside my hiking boots, I kept fidgeting with my hands just to keep them warm.

We stared into the sky. I've never seen as many falling stars in such a short time. It's a memory I will never forget. As my mind wandered away, the stars suddenly turned even brighter. It startled me.

The castle was suddenly surrounded in complete darkness.

There were no lights anywhere, except for the stars above us.


I'll get to relive your beauty again in April.