January Global Game Jam as a volunteer Being a University student living in an overpriced room with two cats while planning to go abroad later in the year means that you don't have a lot of funds to put into extra things. Being a creator means that you love to challenge yourself to come up with new things, to try new things, and...
Hello lovelies! It has been a while since my last entry, but I find myself not having anything else to do at the moment so why not write a blog post? November has been going at a steady pace, with only around 2 weeks left. During the first week of the month we went to Berlin with the company. We went to different...
Internship Ka-pow! The first 8 weeks of my internship have gone by. Flew by, to be honest. I'm feeling pretty good where I am, and with what I'm doing. Despite knowing that I'd move away from home. the furthest I've ever been from the people I love, those first few weeks here were terrifying. It's an incredible sensation to tackle the things that...
Giving a shit while not giving a shit Some years ago, I was described as 'people-pleaser'. And there was definitely a truth to that statement. Being afraid to voice my opinion, because my opinion would cause conflict, and conflict would cause confrontation, and confrontation would cause arguements, and arguements would mean fighting. It was easier to just nod, and agree. At least, that...
Well, September flew by like crazy. It seems quite funny that all the things I'd been worrying or stressing about on end now feel like it was a walk in the park. (despite having learned a lot about trusting my gut, I think I could do with trusting it a bit more.)My first month in Sweden has been absolutely fantastic. Still figuring out...
This blog entry is going to be short, sweet, and straight to the point. Hahaha, no it isn't. I've been pleasantly surprised with myself over the last two weeks. Being here is teaching me a lot about myself, my personality, the way I'm programmed to behave or respond. But being here without really having someone or something to fall back on in a close...
After having finished my first workweek and my second weekend in Sweden, it's time for another short blogpost! I don't have that much to say honestly. I'm very much enjoying it here and obviously adjusting to all the changes; the new environment, the new people, living in the apartment, getting frustrated finding out how the most basic stuff works (like doing your...
Sunday, my third day in Sweden! After around 8 hours of smooth travel (and 18 hours of being awake and active) I arrived at my new home for the coming time: Skövde. (Only recently I found out that this is pronounced as ghuvde.) I am so happy, stoked and excited to be here. Yesterday I met two of my soon-to-be-coworkers when we went...
After returning from a glorious trip to Hamburg and Bremen, I am happy to be back home. One of the reasons being that this home will only be my home for three more weeks. After that, it's time to move to Sweden for at least 6 months! The three week trip was amazing. It was my first time in Germany, and the first...
Last week, I turned 26. When I look back on the last 10 years, I don't necessarily feel like a different person, but I do realise that I've become so much different than I was only a few years ago. Five years ago, I couldn't even look in the mirror without listing all the things I didn't like about myself. When I look...
Last summer, I wrote down 5 goals (or promises even) that I wanted to achieve in the next 5 years. Some of them I have achieved already. some of them were moved to a later stage and some of them are in the process of being achieved. I've always been a goal-oriented person, as it helps me 'measure' progress. If it's something personal,...
I've been thinking of several different ways to change up the format of this blog. Having started this little thing last year in August, I can safely say that writing has helped me in feeling incredibly happy in the present. On a personal level, I am very confident and content with myself. Yet on a professional level, I'm not quite there yet. What...
Suddenly, 3 months seems like a very short timeframe. I can't disclose any official info yet, but I've found an internship as a UI designer/artist! It's basically everything I've wanted and worked towards. It hasn't really struck me yet, but in just 3 months from now I'll be living in a different country. For a year. A country that I've never even visited....
Again, my brain is taking five steps ahead. I find myself worrying over things that aren't even anywhere NEAR being present. I started writing about an hour ago, where I blabbered on about how things aren't going how I would want them to. And then I did something very simple: I made a pro's and cons list of the current stage of my...
Subconsciously hollow. Consciously overwhelmed. Simultaneous chatter. Words too few for words too many. Blue is taking over. To the depths from the surface. Immovable walls. Imagining it all. It's reappearing. Telling me to go away. An excessive revolution is only the start. Illustration by Jenny Tiffany. ...
At the end of last week, I had a horrible stomach flu; which meant I spent around 3 days being alone in my room. Being alone is both a curse and a blessing for me. I get way too caught up in my head after spending too much time alone. Negativity takes over, thoughts take over, and before you know it I've spent...
We've all been there: exhausted, braindead, unmotivated, restless. So what do we do? We start scrolling. Scrolling mindlessly through our news feed, scrolling through our YouTube subscriptions, scrolling through our Twitter feed. And over time, we become numb. We become numb and fail to realise that while we're doing this, not only does life move on, we're also wasting valuable energy! Over the...
Happiness is a choice. Happiness is hard work. Happiness is being disciplined, in everything you do. Happiness is knowing where your priorities are. Happiness is maintenance. Happiness is finding joy in everything you do. Happiness is turning the most dire situation into the best you can make of it. Happiness is knowing your needs and wants. Happiness is giving it your all. Happiness...
I haven't written in a while! Trust me, this time it's a good sign.Honestly, I'm kind of forcing myself to write right now. I feel good, I feel happy. There's the occasional anxiety and insecurity, but I've finally learned to step away and look at myself objectively during those moments. Ofcourse, I do still mess up from time to time (perfection doesn't exist...
Perhaps that's what's getting to me: the certainty of uncertainty. Being fully aware that in 6 months form now, I won't be here anymore. Where there's a part of me that is still fully here, still maintaining my focus on whatever it is that matters right now. Yet there's also the part of me that's already leaning out. The wind that already brushed...
(500) Days of Summer. My all-time favourite movie. It was thanks to my brother recommending it to me, that I ever looked at it at all. I had just gone through my first break-up, and I felt shattered. Even though I was the one who did the breaking up, my world felt like it was crumbling down piece by piece. I had barely...
I simply don't know how to do this. When I was 16, I believed in true love. I believed in the kind of love that would last a lifetime. That if you found your person, you would stick around, stay together, and fight for each other no matter the cost. But now, 10 something years later - I've found that it's impossible for...
"We can all sing simultaneously, but it doesn't work that way when we talk." She said this humorously, without any intent of sounding as clever as she did. I didn't reply. I smirked. Even though we do not see each other often, each time we do it's filled with genuine surprise. One could only hope to become like her at that age. Often...
For the last 2 to 3 weeks I've pretty much been living on autopilot. I've neglected the daily rules I made for myself, I've neglected being mindful of the things I'm supposed to be doing, and I went back into the kind of life I used to live a year ago. Everything was on autopilot. I did not care about anything that happened,...
I heard you again years later All of your words made sense I didn't have to look you up I didn't have to analyze every syllable that came out of your mouth Naturally all of it Perhaps all we had was built on it Perhaps all of our close connections were there before. One day I will be gone and all that remains...
Hey. Here's me then.Five years passed by, and I still don't know why. Here's me then. It's grown a little bit colder, still can't look you in the eye. Can I be your friend now? Please let me have a go. I'll hold your hand and sing you the sweetest lullaby. Here's me now. Ten years passed by, but at least I can...
After about 1,5 years, I finally got a PC that can manage running Adobe Premiere and doesn't require me to render for thirty minutes whatever I'm editing every five minutes. So, I've decided to start making little compilation videos of the roadtrip I did through Scotland in 2014. ...there is about 200 gigs of footage. Every Sunday for the past three weeks I've...
I was inspired to write this little piece after having read a diary entry about the death of David Bowie. David Bowie was someone I grew up with. It started out as him playing Jareth, the goblin king in the fantastic movie Labyrinth. Frequently I imagined myself being Sarah - specifically the masked ball scene in her beautiful dress. And I am admitting...
With a lot of exciting things coming up ahead, a lot of things that need to be taken care of, and the worries that come with it, I'm kind of forgetting to live in the present. Even though I'm working on something every day, sometimes it feels a bit like I'm just rushing through these days to get to the next ones as...
