Ninyn

This might be something that comes natural to plenty of us, but I've only learned to start doing it this year. Creating your own little moments. I noticed that often people would describe me as, or pick up on the fact that I was often stressed, rushing, always doing something. Never taking the time for myself, never taking the time to recharge. It's...

Read More...

Making the right choice doesn't always necessarily mean the most fun one, the most wealthy one or the worst one. They're there to teach you a lesson, to give you a new perspective, or to confirm that you've done things right since the start. When I decided to work full-time for a year before going to University, there were some that advised me...

Read More...

I'm sitting at the train station, reading my new book which I bought earlier this week. It discusses the combination of psychology and neurology, about depersonalisation, losing oneself or forgetting loved ones and surroundings entirely. A lady passes me by, she's got beautiful brown wavy hair, combining perfectly with her bright red coat. She gives me a smile and I return one. I...

Read More...

We were freezing, it was getting dark, and after driving around for quite some time we were getting ready to pitch our tents. It was kind of scary, since officially we were not allowed to camp in this area. "Let's just do it." The tents were up. The lights of the castle were still on. It was getting colder and colder, so I...

Read More...

I forgot how capable I am of being alone. I forgot how much I love solitude. I forgot how much I love simplicity. With a, *gasp*, steady four and a half months of no relationship, I'm slowly finding out what type of person I was before all of this. It's a weird experience when you pick up on traits in yourself that you...

Read More...

I’m shedding my tears through winter. By April I’ll be fine I’ll shed my fears through winter Five to go Melancholy is catching up to me Its grasp is clinging on to me Every little detail is carved into my skull Every single detail that's making me whole I don't regret I won't forget All of the pieces, stuck with glue All of...

Read More...

Hi! There's a LOT on my mind, but I'm going to try and keep it short. It's funny how you can create non-existent situations in your head, up to the point where you're so angry or stressed out when nothing has even happened or will happen. For the past couple of days, I've gotten stuck in my what I like to call "stupid...

Read More...

Inspired by my roommate Kayleigh. I'm writing this letter to myself. Myself from 10 years ago. Dear Nathalie, Right now, you're probably sitting in your room. With your purple hair, your band shirt, your studded wristband. You've got your music on loud, you're probably playing Star Wars Galaxies or World of Warcraft. Anything to hide. Because that's what you want. You don't want...

Read More...

As I'm currently in love with these lyrics, I decided to use them as the title for today's' blogpost. "Every morning there are mountains to climb.". Which is nothing else but the truth! There's challenges everywhere and in everything. It's all a matter of setting your mind to it and doing it, really. Things that intimidate one person don't intimidate the other. The...

Read More...

"So, where do you see yourself in 5 years?"The simplest question that has sent my brain in such an overload. I honestly don't know. Should I know?Of course, I've got some idea of where I'd like to be. How I'd like my life to be. When we're speaking of a solid plan though, nope, I have got no clue. And to tell you...

Read More...

I'm not a saint, nor am I pretending to be one. I'm not looking for attention, I'm just here to share my thoughts. We all need to take a moment and put things into perspective sometimes. Just four days ago, I had the worst panic attack I have ever had in my life. It was caused by something trivial; something that frightened me,...

Read More...

When is enough enough? Where is the fine line? How does one define balance? Routine isn't for me, and it never was. To some I'm "adaptable", to others I'm "untrustworthy". Who do you believe? Does it even matter how someone else sees you? I think it does, but it's up to you to define who the someones are that you want to listen...

Read More...

Why are you so afraid to get out of your comfort zone? Take that step, it's not so scary. I promise!  Do that scary thing you always wanted to do.Read that book you always wanted to read. Talk to that person you've always wanted to talk to! We're all here. We all make mistakes. There's nothing wrong with that. There's also nothing wrong...

Read More...

It's time for confessions! Starting with my own: for the past 10 years, I've not been single. I started dating my first boyfriend when I was 15, and there has not been a break longer than a month that I was not involved with someone (be it official or unofficial) until this day! I broke the spell: I've been single, and also completely...

Read More...

The year is almost coming to an end. Two months to go and we'll take part in this new year called 2016. Blogging has become a routine thing since about 3 months ago now. When I started, I honestly did not expect this was something I'd push through and continue doing. It's been so good to me, though. Up until now, I didn't...

Read More...

Three more days, and we will have slowly but surely crept into November. October 2015 will be another memory, another month that passed. Every year, October is a break or make point for me, and this year around it was definitely a make! I've stepped up in some things, stepped down in other things. I finally managed to lift a "curse" that I...

Read More...

Something I'm paying a lot of attention to the last few months is retraining, or resetting certain habits that have become an automatic activity or action over the years. It's quite tricky sometimes, and it's quite hard not to shoot into either extreme ends of retraining yourself, where one is not doing anything at all, and the other is doing everything all at...

Read More...

It's Saturday, it's grey and cold, the trees have lost their leaves, autumn has begun. I don't handle cold very well. It gets me bad-tempered, I start secluding myself more, and I feel tired. A lot. All I want to do is stay in bed. This is what I would've said a year ago. I still don't handle cold very well, but I've...

Read More...

Honestly, I don't even know what to write about tonight. The fact is that I do know I want to write. There's this feeling of needing to get things off my chest, to regain my focus, and to look ahead.My brain has been oddly fond of getting stuck in past memories for the last 2 weeks. I'm not sure why, and it's annoying...

Read More...

Do you know those days where it feels like everything just falls out of your hands? One of those days where, things you normally have under complete control, fuck up at just the thought of your fingertips touching it? I had one of those days today. Disastrous. And hey, you know what? I'm going to be thankful for this disastrous, stupid day! It...

Read More...

It's Friday, I had a horrible migraine last night and I'm chilling out on my sofa right now. I'm supposed to be in Uni right now, working on our project. But I'm at home. And I consciously made that decision to be home today. So why am I thankful? For the last two days, I volunteered at a games & media conference here...

Read More...